Upset

I think I'm possibly the weakest person I know
I try to be strong, but when you're battling personal issues noone knows, nor seems to want to inquire about, by yourself it eats you up. And being told that you're weak and useless doesn't really help either.

This is going to be one of those horrid melancholy entries that I like to write because it makes me feel as if people actually bother to read. Although noone knows about this blog right now so. Oh well.

Life can be so horrid sometimes. When you finally think that you're happy and you've found your niche - everything likes to come crashing down on you. Ouch. That hurt.

I just need a big fat cry. I haven't had one of those in a while. I seem to be emotionless. Because it's so much better to feel nothing than to feel something.

You know I think I found the cause of my self destructing melancholy. I've never been given any praise in life only just the negative things about my character/appearance. Apart from the odd, your hair is nice compliments I receive zilch, so all of the negativity that I get out balances any good that there may be in me. I'm never going to be the prettiest, or the funniest, or naturally talented (Note, I just work my bumhole off), so what am I going to be? What am going to be in this life of mine?

Bleh I hate my self esteems. I wish I could steal some of one of my friends XD Whose self esteem is HUGE. :P

Meh, Two Exams down, Five to Go.